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Why can’t it all explode?

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Today’s like one of the most miserable days since a very long time. Actually I’m not pretty sure why, but I should have stood in bed and kept on sleeping the whole day. Last weekend wasn’t as exciting as I expected it to be because  if you’ve just visited a city like Paris a city like Dresden comes by like a small village in the middle of nowhere. Another horrible thing was that I devastated my media center and it wasn’t running the whole weekend. For some reasons the system was not bootable after I switched over to a single boot system and deleted Linux Mint. I had to install Windows 7 from ground on and on the other hand I had to re-initialise the RAID system where the OS was installed and my bunch of HD movies was stored, so the movies are lost.

Terrible thing today too is the fucked up weather outside. Dark, grey, pale and cloudy and no god damn summer in sight. I wanted to start off with gym today but I only made it to the bathroom where I picked up my toothbrush put it back and wandered back to bed. Though I am motivated to go to gym I am able to make it to the gym. I feel like I am stuck in a vicious circle and I can’t the portal which I have to break to get out of it. Seriously, I want to make some sport but I can’t get it done. Once again, tomorrow will be another try because I am pretty, pretty sure that I will not find the willpower in the evening today to grab my bag and go to the gym.

Lazy edging

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Seriously, I became pretty lazy within the last days after my vacation. Though I am glad that I can keep my new “low” weight and I am willed to do everything in a sports way to hold it that way I wasn’t able to trick my inner ratfink and make it off to gym for a nice training session or to the park to do a jog. I awoke everyday since Monday at 04:00am to the ring of my alarm clock and I really wanted to go to gym BUT I was actually too tired to do so. Well, I guess I just need one normal session at the gym in the evening, just to lick some sweat and blood and I’ll be able to kick off in the very early morning.

Well, finally I can say at least that everything else in project “Straight edge 2.0” works perfectly fine and there were no rule breaks until now. Okay, okay, okay, okay… there was  this small cupcake this one day but though it was extremely sweet and felt like it holds galleons of calories it wasn’t such a serious sin like the ones in the past. You might remember the two beers right after the start of the first straight edge project. So, this week will pass without sports BUT I promise to do better in the future, next week to be exact.

Heating edge

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This week is by far the weakest week in my straight edge project. I made it only one time off to gym and it felt like a torture. You must know that the summer broke in to our country and the temperature increased drastically. It feels like you’re melting away the whole day. Another point why I didn’t made it off to gym is my nowadays tiredness. I feel a kind of burnt out and pretty exhausted at the moment because everything simply stresses me and I can barely catch a clear thought while concentrating on anything.

Straight Edge - wallpaper by ~x-vegan-x

I am proud to announce that there were no backlashs. I resisted alcohol and cigarettes and I kept to my latest rule change. My weight also did not increase and is a kind of stable for now. By the beginning of next week and after catching a looooot of sleep over the weekend I will definately go to gym every workday. There’s still the goal to reach 96kg (211.64lbs) by the beginning of my vacation in two weeks and by reaching the last milestone in this very first straight edge project of mine. Straight edge 2.0 is on its way…

The first month

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There’s exactly one month that has past in the ‘straight edge’ project. A few friends and colleagues of mine followed me more or less successfull on my stone covered path to the ultimate “edginess” and some who tried to follow cancelled the whole project after a few days. Time for a conclusion…

Like I said a few times in the past, I feel much better now and I can’t say that I miss something urgently. I feel more and more comfortable with waking up at 04:00am to get off to gym to practice my every day workout and training. The training itself turns to a more interesting and less boring point by now because the muscle regeneration and buildup process is nearly done and I can focus more on cardio training. I have done a lot of muscle training, especially bulge, back and legs, to get a kind of more body control in the cardio training and to obviate joint problems. I had these problems last time where I started with sport though, mainly in my knees.

Every gym session, including last week, implied the cross trainer and the bicycle as the only cardio gear. From this week on I decreased the amount of muscle training and increased the cardio training, it’s now about 30 percent muscle to 70 percent cardio training instead of 50/50 that it was before. I jog every day on the treadmill and soon will start with rowing, each 30 minutes plus crosstrainer (40 min) and bicycle (10 min). I guess that this will give me an enormous boost to my reduction of weight (hopefully). I have to mention that the bicycle is only warmup gear, because I ride my bike as much as I can in everyday life.

workout by *Geironimo

My weakest point are my passion, or better obsession, for sweets and chocolate. One rule says that I am not allowed to eat chocolate and I almost made it to live without it. Well, I eat ice cream nearly every day but this is for sure going to be stopped with the next milestone of this project. And I bought me a bar of chocolate yesterday BUT it’s got only 528kcal on 100g and it’s a bar of plain chocolate. One piece every third or fourth day won’t really hurt.

One thing that I absolutely don’t miss are cigarettes and alcohol. Two good things about this are #1 it’s better for my health living without alcohol and cigarettes and #2 I save a lot of money because I don’t have to buy this shit. Drugs are taboo, too.

Well, what can I say at last. I feel very well with my new circumstances in life and I am pretty sure that I will continue with it after 15th July.

Got that feeling

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I don’t know why but today I feel an urgent need to get drunk. I haven’t had the need for alcohol since the beginning of living straight edge but today is one of these days where I just feel that need to get totally fucked up. Maybe it’s the fact that I am bored at work or that I haven’t been to gym this morning because today is my girlfriend’s 30th birthdays and I wanted to wake up with her. Interestingly do I feel much more exhausted than I feel on days where I go off to gym very early in the morning. Guess I got comfortable with gym in the morning.

Frauenkirche. by distancexkills

It’s so damn nice that I finally found a gift for my girl’s birthday and most importantly a gift that she like. I arranged a hotel room for a weekend in August in the beautiful city Dresden. Hopefully the weather will be nice and warm that we can discover a lot of sights and places in Dresden. Last time I’ve been there was around 1988 or so and I am really excited to see the rebuilt Frauenkirche Church. I remember last time where I was standing in front of this building it was nothing more than a bunch of stones, not even a ruin.

One week after

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Over one week has passed in the straight edge project and though it was tough on the very first weekend I can say that it is getting easier every day. But on the other hand I have to admit that it is still hard to resist the seductions in every day life. Everytime whenI feel the need to eat something sweet and delicious or when I just get an appetite for food I suck a licorice drop. I also have to say that it is easy to resist seductions when you are on own and everything is in a kind of “under control” but as soon as you leave the house and visit some friends for example you see that control is getting loose and you find more and more obstacles on your way to be straight edge. It is natural to serve coffee when you visit someone at 3:00pm and it is also natural when visit someone with a new born baby with a small group visitors that this person is not going to cook something special for you when it comes to dinner. I am not sure if I should feel like a sinner because I can’t say that my nutrition was always “perfect” but I was mainly eating a kind of unhealthy in groups when there was no other choice. I know that this is no excuse but I haven’t found a potential solution by know.

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Another announcement I have to make is that I started to go to gym before work at about 5:00am in the morning. I was a little bit of skeptic if I can have the workout with the same intense like it is in the evening. Finally I found out that there is no difference for me in my overall ability and last but not least that a workout in the morning is much more efficient for someone like me who wants to lose weight and fat. I do not eat breakfast before gym in the morning so the fat burning progress is starting much earlier as it is going to happen on a workout in the evening.

One serious problem I found in combination with my workout is that I cannot measure my progress by watching my weight because it going up and down on a high level around 204 – 208lbs. I guess it would be a finer way to control progress if I start measuring belly, arms and legs weekly. One goal of training is to gain muscles and my sustentation includes a lot of proteine so I personally think that I gained a lot muscles over the last days so that controlling weight will not indicate how much fat I lost.

Next positive thing I have to mention is that I found fun in cooking. I am not a very talented cook but it is fun at all to do more than opening the pizza box and placing the pizza in cooker. My cooked meals are mainly made with chicken and rice. Chicken to gain proteine and rice to fill the stomach and receive as little calories as possible. And, of course there are always some fresh vegetables included in my meal like tomatoes and pepper.

My final conclusion after more than one week of living straight edge is that I feel much better and healther though the project is only over one week old and definately will continue with this. By now I don’t see something that will make so frustrated that I feel the need to quit.

Buuurn baby

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Before the beginning of the whole straight edge project thing I thought that visiting the gym is going to be a duty call for the first weeks or even months. But I was mistaken, the last two sessions in gym gave me back the passion and the willpower to get something done and moving and to improve myself. While being in gym and feeling once again the burning of my muscles and defeating my ratfink in the cardio area the joy and fun came back much earlier than I thought. Honestly I cannot wait to get into gym again. Today is a day off to get a little rest and tomorrow I will try to go to gym in the early morning at around 5:00 am just to see if it’s possible to get a satisfying train result or if I fall instantly asleep on the reverse butterfly. We will see…

I have to mention that since the beginning of my personal challenge project I gained about 4lbs of weight and I do not know where it came from. Well, okay there was this pepperoni that crossed my way and told me to eat her but on the other hand I don’t really care about weight in the first 3-4 weeks because I personally think that my whole body and metabolism is so irritated about the things happening right now that my weight for sure will go up and down like a rollercoaster. Anyhow, the whole project is mainly about resisting things in everyday life and NOT about losing weight.