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Quickie

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Here’s just a short update of what has happened in during the last days since my last blog post. To be honest, nothing really special happened. It’s FIFA World Cup in South Africa and I try to watch as many matches as I can, even at work. I was so pissed with my old tube TV that I had to bye me a new 40″ flat LED TV screen and I also signed a new contract with my cable provider to get as much HD as possible.

Another thing that pisses me off for a while is my job. It bores me on the one hand and it stresses me incredibly much that I can barely concentrate on anything on the other hand. Actually it feels like a burnout syndrome but I’ll wait till the last day of my upcoming vacation in France if this feel is still present. If it’s so I’ll look around for a new job.

Straight edge is running well at the moment except one thing, my addiction for ice. From today on rule #6 which says “Say no to chocolate and candy! Subsist yourself healthy!” will change to “Say no to chocolate, sweets, ice, cake and candy! Subsist yourself healthy!”

I had to make this change because I personally think that my nutrition wasn’t that healthy as it should have been in last 2-3 weeks and there were too much of this sweet thing crap. Maybe with “Straight Edge 2.0” I’ll introduce something like a “day off”-rule to get more control into flexibility and wanted rule breaks. But I have to think about this rule.

Tonight is the night where I am going to see AC/DC in concert again. I’ve seen them last year in Leipzig in the Central Stadium and now I am going to see them in Berlin’s Olympiastadion which will be a great and amazing scenery for a rock concert of this size. For those about to rock, we salute you…

R.I.P. Steve

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I received one of these unpopular messages yesterday evening via ICQ. One of my best friends told me that our concerted friend who used to be with us on every party and every single event we went to was found dead in front of his house last weekend. He was only 28 years old.

Though he was one of these “cursory friends”, he was a good friend of mine and we shared a lot of interests. We had lots of funny and refreshing conversations about all kinds of things but mainly about the “good damn users” because he, like me, was a systems administrator too. He also was an awesome bass player gifted with talent and an open mind for all kinds of music.

Unfortunately do we had to find out by last years October that he was a psychotic too who was suffering from paranoia and schizophrenia. He had to spent several weeks in a sanitarium followed by a long treatment after freaking out. I don’t really know what exactly happened to him over the last few weeks but I personally guess it got something to do with his psychosis and the medicals he had to ingest. He was a party animal but medicals mixed with alcohol and too many cigarettes will not fit together for long. But this is only a guessing of mine.

Rest in peace Steve. We will miss you.

A walk on the straight side

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The first two days of my “Living straight edge” project has past and the first impression I got – “Damn, this is seriously tough”

Curiously the smallest problem I had was to stop smoking, the problem that is/was even worth was to disclaim sweets, candy and caffeine. Now I know how much I am addicted to caffeine and my once beloved Coke Zero. According to the sleep problems I got in the last few month and the tiny amount of sleep and rest every night I would say that this is one of the larger steps to be taken, to get away from caffeine.

Another thing that nearly drove me mad were the seductions everywhere. Wherever you go to you will find something really tasty that wants to be bought, that wants to be eaten and that wants to be consumed. I was a kind of shocked from myself that I am so devotional to tasty food. I have to confess that I was a sinner by ordering a Diet Coke in a restaurant because I was not regarding the rules of my project and forget the caffeine paragraph. I am sorry and promise to do better in the future. Well, the next step to take is the four times of sport a week. My enthusiasm is around zero degree but I am pretty sure that this is going to change within the first training sessions.

Project:Brutal Truth

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For around 3 to 4 weeks there’s something like a ‘personal project’ running with one very simple goal, to confront people with the brutal truth.

That means to absolutely tell no lies in conversations even when they may hurt or affect the person in front. Point #2 is to be straight forward and honest in every situation that affects me, like every single rude word or gesture and things like that.

Non-surprisingly nearly every person that got involved in my little personal project felt instantly affected. Whether it was a colleague confronted with a reaction to his unpolite behaviour or just being honest in every single situation where someone wants to hear a polite lie.

People do not like the truth and telling the brutal truth as often as you can makes the people get an opinion of you as if you are the last arrogant human prototype asshole on this earth. Well, I guess I’ll cancel this project

Late night thoughts…

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I am back from my beloved Berlin and it pisses me damn off that I am back ‘home’. The weather is bad, the people are obnoxious and once again I feel like drifting through life in the one of the smallest nut-shells ever. Everytime I visit Berlin I fall into a kind of depression afterwards. Magdeburg is like a prison cell for me. There’s no real choice in what to do in this bloody town. You have like 3-4 pubs that are worth visiting them and there’s nearly no club where you can go to. Everything is mainstream as hell and everyone seems over-adapted to me.

To be honest, my opinion about Magdeburg is not a very objective one but if you ever experienced wandering around in boroughs like F’hain, Kreuzberg, Treptow or even Mitte you’ll know what I mean. There’s always something “new” to experience in Berlin and the city reinvents itself everytime you’re out there and “observe”. Magdeburg is stuck… def, dumb and blind.

I went to the First of May riots with a friend of mine and some of his companions and even though the atmosphere was very aggressive on some spots there I felt like “safe” and without a real threat from someone. Try to visit a simple soccer match in Magdeburg or take a walk in some northern areas and you’ll know what real aggressiveness is like especially when you wear long hear or if your “dress-code” incorrect. Man, I miss Berlin and I don’t want to be here anymore…

Hmm, I forgot what I actually wanted to say… well, it’s late and time for sleep… gn8

Weather experience

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So, what’s wrong with the world and our weather god? Huh?

The weather forecast in the morning told me : “The sun is going to shine today” – “It’s getting warmer” – “All you people will feel like being in the summer” – “The winter is finally gone”

Well, by believing these ‘predictions’ I decided on this very morning on this very 26th of April Two-K-Ten that the time is now to wear short pants. I need to mention that I totally like to wear short pants. It is a kind of freedom to feel that the cloth ends right under your knee, not to speak of the indirect “air conditioning”. I also need to mention that I am a person that sweats, if you know what I mean, so I grab every little cooling I can get.

Anyhow, the forecast was wrong on this very morning on this… well, you know… it started to rain, it got colder and I felt like a kind of displaced. BUT, keep that in your mind, I will not bow down before the power and might of mother nature and its weather experiments, I’ll keep on wearing these short pants until the weather report tells me that the winter has arrived.

Curse you, Petrus!!! CURSE YOU!!!

Let’s fix this

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By browsing through one of my favourite websites Deviant Art I discovered that there is a huge fan base in photography for one special focal length – 50mm. I’m thinking about buying a lens with a fixed focal lenght too because of various reasons.

#1 – I don’t want to get lame and lazy caused by an almighty zoom telephoto lens. I cannot deny that I have caught myself several times by just zoom in to my motif instead of walking a little bit closer. Let us say, I believe that photographers using fixed focal lenses are more sporty than the zooming fraction.

#2 – It’s simplier. Just sharp the motif and you’ll be fine.

#3 – The “amount of light” that hits the “film” is bigger, better, faster, finer, beautifuller, advantager and just UBER… seriously, most lenses with fixed focal length come with a much higher aperture cap than the ones with zoom abilities. And I really, really like high apertures… not just only because of the light, it’s more a thing of depth of focus.

Well, by now I am not sure which lens will be mine in the distant future. I am stuck between 28mm, 50mm and 85mm. I’ll check this out and let you know when I finally came to a conclusion. But one thing is for sure, I like it fixed 🙂